a hell of a (few) month(s)

so the past months have been pretty draining. from two deaths in my family to way too much stress at work, i have found myself often just wanting to give up. i am surprised (not sure why since i have noticed this since i started three years ago) how much people pay attention to and am controlled by things that really don't matter. i suppose they matter to them and that is why it is important but i guess when you try to get a glimpse of God's perspective and glimpse of things that he cares about, what these people (and myself for that matter) care about often don't line up. I guess its soemthing we will never get to but something we should always be striving for.